I’ve been gone for a bit and how I’ve missed writing. But the last month has been a whirlwind. We had a baby, people! And she’s already a month old!

Some thoughts on life these days, what motherhood looks and feels like as of late.

Some days I power through laundry, freelance work from home, read to my toddler before sending him off on the bus to daycare, vacuum, tidy up… and I feel like a rockstar! But let’s be real. MOST days, I’m lucky if I put on a fresh shirt or remember to wash my face. And this week, with J home with his daycare on break, I’ve been on survival mode learning to juggle life with two kids.
This newborn stage is all-consuming. Breastfeeding is a full-time, around-the-clock job.
I forgot how much newborns cry. I get it. That’s how they communicate. But my mama bear instincts kick into high gear along with my stress, adrenaline, hormones. Oh, not to mention mama’s boobs respond to baby’s cries too.
Baby girl has recently decided she will only sleep on me. This has presented to be quite the challenge, especially with big brother at home this week. I’ve resorted to a lot of screen time for J and my arms feel like noodles most hours of the day.
“Mommy brain” is a real thing. I have a hard time stringing together words. Recall is a thing of the past. Thanks, sleep deprivation and postnatal depletion.
Mom guilt- I thought I knew a thing or two about it but boy has its intensity and depth hit me hard becoming a mom of two. I’m trying to balance everything, wanting to be everything for everyone and feeling like I’m constantly dropping the ball somewhere. “Mom grace” is a thing we all need to practice.
Baby smirks are possibly one of the best things in the world. It melts away all the aches and pains and weariness. Oh, and the newborn smell! It’s intoxicating. I sniff her all day long.