Recently, our third turned one. And as I went down memory lane, I found this unfinished blog post for a year ago… a letter to my second-born. Though it seems quite late, better late than never?
Dearest O,
They told me my heart would grow to love another again, but uniquely. And as soon as you were born, I immediately wonder why I ever had even a shadow of a doubt.
Baby girl, you are “without equal or rival” and uniquely you.
“The bittersweet side of appreciating life’s most precious moments is the unbearable awareness that those moments are passing.”
You’re about to become a big sister and I’m not sure how my heart will handle all these feelings.
한편으로는 아직 너도 애긴데… 너한테 너무 미안하면서도 너에게 동생을 줄수 있고 거기다가 자매를 줄수 있어 너무 감사해. 엄마는 자매가 없지만 내 주변에 있는 많은 사람들이 셋째가 또 딸이라고 했을때 너와 동생에게는 너무나도 좋을거라고 해서 위로가 됐단다.
My precious girl,
I don’t know what to expect but one thing I can promise is that my love for you will always remain.
You have gifted me the honor and privilege of becoming a girl mom.
And you opened up my heart in ways I never knew possible.
I love you.